Hadza min fadhli Rabbi

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So, sejak cuti sekolah sebulan ni, I thought that it is time for me to change, I mean Hijr. yeah, Hijr. Semua tahu yang hijrah tu sangat susah dan yeah, memang susah. Alhamdulillah I was born dalam family berpendidikan Islam and Alhamdulillah Allah jentik hati I untuk berubah. I mean yeah, 2 years ago, I teringin sangat2 nak berpurdah. So, i decided to buy purdah via instagram. And finally I found this 'ukhty' sell purdah with a cheap price. I decided to buy with my own money but the problem is, I takde akaun bank untuk bank in duit. So, I ask my aunty to bank in about RM50 (I bought 3 purdah and 1 ring handsock). So next 2 days, my stuffies safely arrived from brother Poslaju. Bukak je parcel, woahhh I was so excited! But yeah you know, family I bukanlah yang pakar bab agama, I mean parents I not a Ustaz or Ustazah. So, hmm time tu memang buntu. "Aku nak berubah tapi ummi ayah boleh ke terima perubahan aku yang macamni?". That question keep hunting me, till now.


And Alhamdulillah, one day, I ask ayah if I can wear purdah or not. So my ayah reply, "ayoh bukan apa. tunggu lah kakcik habis belajar dulu sebab kat sekolah mana boleh pakai. ayah suka sangat kalau kakcik nak pakai but this is not the right time to wear it my dear. sabar ye?", then without a word, I nodded. And once again Alhamdulillah, I wear it without hesitate, dengan selamba kucingnya, bravely. I saw ayah ummi memang terkedu tengok I but yeah, I was like 'ayah, ummi, I'm ready now. Allah bagi jalan yang terbaik untuk kakcik dan inilah jalannya untuk selamatkan diri kakcik drpd fitnah duniawi sekarang'. I know, ummi mesti macam tak berapa nak setuju cause yeah, I dulu anak ummi ayah yang paling nakal niamatnya! So, maybe itu yang membuatkan ummi ayoh kurang percaya sikit dekat I but don't worry.  I wanna live like this, covered than anyone else. Let me be the best  among the best in my family. I nak balas jasa ummi and ayoh. Wait for me ya? *tears*


I realise. It is not to late for me. Thank you Allah for your guidence. Allhamdulillah, haza min fadhli rabbi. Doakan I moga istiqomah dan tak mudah putus asa dalam menjalani kehidupan. Ameen. Lillah wa fillah, in shaa Allah.










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